CaHaYaPeriNdu

2010-05-25T23:53:00.002+08:00

whatever u are feeling, i feel it more.
boy. at times, i just feel so stupid.
it makes me feel so unworthy.
i am at the losing end. so, why bother.
after all the heartache, its not worth it.

2010-05-15T10:17:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum Wr. Wb.~

Hey.. Its been so long since i blogged.
I guess I totally forgot about my blog's existence.

Ya Allah, Saa'idni min hadzal balak. Waghfirli dzunubi.

For in only U I believe.
Amin.

'Its hard to instill justice when we are but humans.'

Regards,
Aisyah.

2009-06-30T22:36:00.002+08:00

yeah.
after the long wait,
they finally returned to singapore.
hamdan lillah they arrived safely. :)
oh ya.
was touched sey by Huzaifah's speech.
bangon pagi teringat,
nak tido pon teringat.
takot sey aku~
ingat yer..
Birrul Walidain~ :)
and ya..
was awed by him arh~
walaupun ku tak kenal akh tu..
but he was indeed inspiring..
tangan menggigil and kaki menggigil..
yet he showed much courage in giving the speech.
malah penuh confident.
caya la huzaifah.
kagum sey sama die~
MasyaAllah...

oh today was a different story.
yeah~
today was busy,
busy ...
and busy.
lol~
went out with my two darlings~
my mummi and my neneks~ :)
cool kapper~
hehehe.
tu aje la nak cakap. lol.
macam tak brape important gitu kan?
HAHAHHA.
rasa tadi macam ada benda nak cakap..
tapi bila da type, tak tawu nak cakap ape.

oh ya~
nenek mengidam nak sipu sedut...
ulam2 and sambal belacan ...
and ikan bakar~
fuyyoo~
meleleh airliur.
HAHAHAHA.
tibe-tibe rasa lapar~
so, tommorow we will be going somewhere for that food~
yeah~~~~
:))

Kla..
CP,
signing out.

2009-06-23T23:51:00.002+08:00

tsk.tsk.tsk.

:'(

it is so hard to be patient.
its harder yet to endure.

2009-06-02T13:58:00.002+08:00

Hey ya all.
YEsterday marks the 1st of June.
And Muhammad Hazwan Danial was born.
The baby weighs 3.36kg...
Aww so tiny.
and oh so cute.
He has not yet opened his eyes.
Tat oh so tiny nose, so tiny mouth, so tiny ears.
Argh..
In all, he's just plain cute.
His heartbeat keeps vibrating.
It was quite scary holding him in my huge arms (as compared to his).
Congrats to Busu and Pak usu!

And yeah,
his brother,
Muhammad Hafiz Danish also looked pretty
with his messy hair.
HAHA.
and well was kindof ignorant to others.
( his usual self i guess ).
It was fun meeting the family.
i sooo luv it.

I so am in Luv with Hazwan.
Sooo... CUTE!
HAHA.

'af not yet uploaded his tiny face.
will do it later.
:)

kla. tat's all i guess.
to ecot,
sori k.
luv u.

cp, outz.

2009-05-31T23:43:00.002+08:00

Setelah sehari penat berjalan,
malam ini ku membuka minda
untuk bertitah...

Entah mengapa..
Hati rasa berbunga-bunga kerana terasa...
ramai yang bisa mengecap kebahagiaan di dalam...
dunia yang terlalu sibuk kini...
Terasa diri juga seolah-olah cemburu...
Ingin juga aku merasa kebahagiaan yang dikecapi mereka...
NAmun ku menyedari bahawa diri ini...
belum bersedia menempuh perjuangan insan-insan yang terdahulu...
Tidak mengapalah...
Kan Tuhan lebih mengerti...
Tuhan lebih memahami...
Ku pujuk jua hati...
kerana ku tau...
diri belum mampu memikul tanggungan itu...
Kadangkala kehendak mengatasi kebolehan...
Ada ketika ku mahu cepat dewasa...
ku mahu cepat matang...
tetapi kadangkala ku rasakan harga kedewasaan itu ...
terlalu sadis untuk aku menukarkannya dengan kebahagiaan...
Mungkin..
Belum masanya kebahagiaan itu datang dari segi lahir...
Dari segi kekasih hati yang sah..
Namun ku bersyukur kerana kebahagiaan yang disisi Allah itu..
Lebih indah dan manis..
Sesuatu yang sukar dipandang dengan mata kasar...
insan bernama manusia.

CP,
mengundur diri.

2009-05-25T12:48:00.003+08:00

Ya Allah,
jika aku jatuh cinta,
cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya padaMu
agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk menyintaiMu.

Ya Muhaimin,
jika aku jatuh hati,
izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang sehingga hatinya tertaut padaMu agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta nafsu.

Ya Rabbana,
jika aku jatuh hati,
jagalah hatiku padanya agar tidak berpaling daripada hatiMu..

Ya Rabbul 'Izzati,
jika aku rindu,
rindukanlah aku pada seseorang yang merindui syahid di jalanMu..

Ya Allah,
jika aku menikmati cinta kekasihMu,
janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan indahnya bermunajat di sepertiga malam terakhirMu...

Ya Allah,
jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasihMu,
jangan biarkan aku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam perjalanan panjang menyeru manusia kepadaMu..

Ya Allah,
jika Kau halalkan aku merindui kekasihMu,
jangan biarkan aku melampaui batas sehingga melupakan aku pada cinta hakiki dan rindu abadi hanya kepadaMU.

Amin.

Quote, youtube.. 'Jika aku jatuh hati'.

2009-05-21T11:00:00.002+08:00

HAppY BirThday Dearie.
I miss u.
May Allah bless u always.
Take care.
Be a better person k.

2009-05-10T13:29:00.002+08:00

Yuhuuuu~
:D yesh ah~ ni pon baru alek dari jumpe muih family.
Happy banget sihh~
Dorang datang KL~
Actually just for the sake of helping me bringing the loads of stuff home.
hahaha.
at the same time, bersuka ria~

And today,
continuation of the dreaded thesis.
hahahaha.
i very much hope that it will all end soon.
tapi bile dah end, sedih pulak.
haizzzzzzzzzzz...
manusia ni susah tol nak rasa bersyukur.
hehe.

Nothing beats meeting ones family.
Macam dah lama gitu tak jumpe.
hehe.
and i shall be staying here for a week or so.
accompanied by my new roomate,
Ecah.
HAHAHA.
well.
we got a room.
luckily.
so both i and ecah will be staying together.
cey.. macam tak biase pulok!
HAHA. :D

kla.
gotta continue.
Before i end...
UMMI~~~~~~~~
HAPPY MoTHER'S DAY!
I Love U alot!
Muackx!
Thanks a lot for everything~
Haf a safe ride home!

CP,
Signing out.

2009-04-29T16:50:00.001+08:00

This is like totally random.
i was idling, got nothing better to do.
so, pika suggested this webby.
cool seyy~

July 14th, 2007 at 1:08 pm (Petua Cinta)
from www.http://www.petua.org/?cat=26

1] Orang yang mencintai kamu tidak pernah mampu memberikan alasan kenapa dia mencintai kamu. Yang dia tahu di hati dan matanya hanya ada kamu satu-satunya.

2] Walaupun kamu sudah memiliki teman istimewa atau kekasih, dia tidak perduli! Baginya yang penting kamu bahagia dan kamu tetap menjadi impiannya.

3] Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu menerima kamu apa adanya, di hati dan matanya kamu selalu yang tercantik walaupun mungkin kamu merasa berat badan kamu sudah bertambah.

4] Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu ingin tahu tentang apa saja yang kamu lalui sepanjang hari ini, dia ingin tahu kegiatan kamu.

5] Orang yang mencintai kamu akan mengirimkan SMS seperti ‘Selamat Pagi’,'Selamat Hari Minggu’, ‘Selamat Tidur’,
‘Take Care’, dan lain-lain lagi, walaupun kamu tidak membalas SMS-nya, kerana dengan kiriman SMS itulah dia menyatakan cintanya, menyatakan dalam cara yang berbeza,bukan “aku CINTA padamu”, tapi berselindung ayat selain kata cinta itu.

6] Jika kamu menyambut hari tahun dan kamu tidak mengundangnya ke majlis yang kamu adakan, setidak-tidaknya dia akan menelefon untuk mengucapkan selamat atau mengirim SMS.

7] Orang yang mencintai kamu akan selalu mengingat setiap kejadian yang dia lalui bersama kamu, bahkan mungkin kejadian yang kamu sendiri sudah melupakannya, kerana saat itu ialah sesuatu yang berharga untuknya.Dan saat itu, matanya pasti berkaca. kerana saat bersamamu itu tidak bisa berulang selalu.

8] Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu mengingati setiap kata-kata yang kamu ucapkan, bahkan mungkin kata-kata yang kamu sendiri lupa pernah mengungkapkannya. kerana dia menyematkan kata-kata mu di hatinya,berapa banyak kata-kata penuh harapan yang kau tuturkan padanya, dan akhirnya kau musnahkan? pasti kau lupa, tetapi bukan orang yang mencintai kamu.

9] Orang yang mencintai kamu akan belajar menggemari lagu-lagu kegemaran kamu, bahkan mungkin meminjam CD milik kamu, kerana dia ingin tahu apa kegemaran kamu - kesukaan kamu kesukaannya juga, walaupun sukar meminati kesukaan kamu, tapi akhirnya da berjaya.

10] Kalau kali terakhir kalian bertemu kamu mungkin sedang selesema, atau batuk-batuk, dia akan sentiasa mengirim SMS atau menelefon untuk bertanya keadaan kamu - kerana dia bimbangkan tentang kamu, peduli tentang kamu.

11] Jika kamu mengatakan akan menghadapi ujian, dia akan tanyakan bila ujian itu berlangsung, dan saat harinya tiba dia
akan mengirimkan SMS ‘good luck’ untuk memberi semangat kepada kamu.

12] Orang yang mencintai kamu akan memberikan suatu barang miliknya yang mungkin buat kamu itu ialah sesuatu yang biasa, tetapi baginya barang itu sangat istimewa.

13] Orang yang mencintai kamu akan terdiam sesaat, ketika sedang bercakap di telefon dengan kamu, sehingga kamu menjadi bingung. Sebenarnya saat itu dia merasa sangat gugup kerana kamu telah menggegarkan dunianya.

14] Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu ingin berada di dekat kamu dan ingin menghabiskan hari-harinya hanya dengan kamu.

15] Jika suatu saat kamu harus pindah ke daerah lain, dia akan sentiasa memberikan nasihat agar kamu waspada dengan persekitaran yang boleh membawa pengaruh buruk kepada kamu. dan jauh dihatinya dia benar-benar takut kehilangan kamu, pernah dengar ‘jauh dimata, jauh dihati?’

16] Orang yang mencintai kamu bertindak lebih seperti saudara daripada seperti seorang kekasih.

17] Orang yang mencintai kamu sering melakukan hal-hal yang SENGAL seperti menelefon kamu 100 kali dalam masa sehari. Atau mengejutkan kamu di tengah malam dengan mengirim SMS. Sebenarnya ketika itu dia sedang memikirkan kamu.

18] Orang yang mencintai kamu kadang-kadang merindukan kamu dan melakukan hal-hal yang membuat kamu pening kepala. Namun ketika kamu mengatakan tindakannya itu membuat kamu terganggu dia akan
minta maaf dan tak akan melakukannya lagi.

19] Jika kamu memintanya untuk mengajarimu sesuatu maka ia akan dgn sabar walaupun kamu mungkin orang yang terbodoh di dunia!. bahkan dia begitu gembira kerana dapat membantu kamu. dia tidak pernah
mengelak dari menunaikan permintaan kamu walau sesukar mana permintaan mu.

20.Kalau kamu melihat handphone-nya maka nama kamu akan menghiasi sebahagian besar INBOX-nya. Dia masih menyimpan SMS-SMS dari kamu walaupun ia kamu kirim berbulan-bulan atau bertahun-tahun
yang lalu. Dia juga menyimpan surat-surat kamu di tempat khas dan segala pemberian kamu menjadi benda-benda berharga buatnya.

21] Dan jika kamu cuba menjauhkan diri daripadanya atau memberi reaksi menolaknya, dia akan menyedarinya dan menghilang dari kehidupan kamu, walaupun hal itu membunuh hatinya.

22] Jika suatu saat kamu merindukannya dan ingin memberinya kesempatan dia akan ada menunggu kamu kerana sebenarnya dia tak pernah mencari orang lain. Dia sentiasa menunggu kamu.

23] Orang yang begitu mencintaimu, tidak pernah memaksa kamu memberinya sebab dan alasan, walaupun hatinya meronta ingin mengetahui, kerana dia tidak mahu kamu terbeban dengan karenahnya. saat kau pinta dia berlalu,dia pergi tanpa menyalahkan kamu, kerana dia benar-benar mengerti apa itu cinta.

2009-03-11T23:00:00.002+08:00

Whoever wishes that they would grow up fast,
shud just wait.
its no fun being an adult actually.
u're constantly burdened yet mesmerized with the tons of problems surfacing each day.
one will tend to ponder,
when will all of it dissapear.
haha.
never.
it's fun being a kid.
i wish that i could reminisce and live my childhood days.
i remembered dat, when i was a kid.
i used to dream of wat it would feel like to be all grown-up.
NOW I KNOW.
its fun yet its hard.
just too much problem and too much thinking.
i'm just 23 but with all this problems,
i can appear 40!
haha.
not that i look that old though.
saja nak buat perumpamaan!
mengada-ngada and nampak sangat exaggerate.
Exaggerate Queen.
HA. HA.

Well.
i've stopped talking the matters of my heart.
cause i know it's settled.
i chose to make it settle for abit.
now,
i am talking about others.
it weighs heavily on my mind and shoulders.
the issues were much bigger than mine.
and its like so freaking hard to find the solution.
Quite impossible lah actually.
i'm glad tat i'm not that hard on myself on this stuff.
and i'm glad Allah has shown me the light,
accompanied by great friends who constantly bring me back to my faith.
....
Hamdan Lillah.

YA Allah..
Ko restui dan berkatilah mereka dalam membuat pemilihan.
seandainya,
ini kelebihanku..
maka permudahkanlah hati ini untuk menerima..
dan fasihkanlah lidah ini untuk menasihati...
Amin.

CP.
Signing out.

2009-01-24T01:04:00.002+08:00

I can't help feeling sad today.
Bro would always go out late on his bike.
At around 10.
and be back around 1.
Sometimes i just wished he'd be back later in the morning.
Cause i need some privacy time.

But today.
Looking at the hall.
It all seems too empty.
I felt so empty inside.
How i wish bro would come back at this time.
Safely at home.
Asleep.

I felt like crying.
Cause i know he's in the hospital.
Lying there with a dislocated arm.
I pity him alot.
He used to be so ignorant.
But lately.
He just seemed sweet.
Everytime i think of him lying there all alone.
I start to weep.
Dear Brother.
I wished u were home.
I wished i could take over ur place and be the one lying there.
It pains me to have my own brother at the hospital.
Not when he's been so good to me. :'(

Bro..
I wish u all the best for tommorows OP.
I hope u get well soon.
And get to ride that fav bike of urs again!

Missing you...

CP,
a.k.a Sis.
Signing out.

2009-01-24T00:30:00.002+08:00

During our trip back.
Me and Ecah looked at the clouds.
When we were kids,
we would try figuring out what each shapes are.
Lions. Tigers. Etc.
Ya.
But when i looked at it today.
I kindof felt lost.
All the cloud just seems CLOUD.
Gasses of air. whatever it is in scientific terms.
But it all just seems too rational.
I didnt get to see the animal shapes when i was a small kid.
Age do affect ones thinking..
To the extent our imagination?
i kind of felt mature.
Too mature.
i felt kind of adultsy.
It all felt too weird tho.
i want to be feeling like a little kid.
i want to be able to imagine.
over the slightest things.
i gather.
when we stopped fantasizing.
we stopped believing.
and it happened to me.
i stopped looking at clouds the same way i did when i was a kid.
so..
things just changed.
i gathered up my thoughts and tried very hard to make animal shapes out of it.
though it still looked cloudy.
at least at the end of the trip.
i could see an alien with wings. LOL!
it kind of felt funny.
but i liked the feeling.
it makes me appreciate the simplicity of life.
of tiny weeny things that made each of us happy.
:))
also..
it helps to keep on believing in stuff.
cause it all happens when we believe.
thus when we stopped believing...
stop having faith...
watever things which seems sweet might have already been lost.
SO..
memo to all.
Keep that faith alive eh...

P/S: Pray for my brother eh... die accident! ahhh...
sedih...

CP,
Signing out.

2009-01-10T01:07:00.002+08:00

dialah insan pertama yang pernah bertakhta di hati...
dia jugalah insan pertama yang banyak membuat airmata ini dititiskan..
kehadirannya membawa sinar dalam hidupku..
namun sinar itu hanya sementara...
ku dihimpit rasa pilu...
rasa sedih..
rasa duka...
kerana di saat dia berikan madu...
di situ juga terselitnya racun yang berbisa...
bagaimana bisa hadiah ini aku lupakan?
hadiah dan kehadirannya yang telah banyak merubah hidupku...
membuat aku serik untuk bercinta...
membuat aku serik untuk membuka hatiku untuk sesiapa...
aku menjadi takut..
takut kepada ketidaktentuan...
ketidaktentuan yang berupa hati manusia..

yang pada lafaz awal menyatakan sayang...
dan kemudiaannya sewenang-wenangnya berkata lafaz tadi hanya satu kesilapan..
bagaimana harus aku terima?
sedangkan dia berada di kala aku kegelapan...
tetapi hilang di kala hidupku mula di suluh cahaya...

singkat waktu ku mengenalnya.
namun...
namanya tetap tersemat dijiwa..
gambarnya bisa membuat aku menangis...
bertemunya pula bisa mengguris...

Ya Allah...
aku berharap satu hari nanti..
hati ini akan diubati..
buat masa kini..,
biarlah aku sendiri...,

CP,
Mengundur diri.

2009-01-06T00:58:00.003+08:00

We tend to conform someone into something tat they arent.
let say i'm a madrasah student. i must be someone religious.
well, conformity is a good thing.
as long as it does not hinder ourselves into being us.
does not make one a hypocrite.
good changes are good.
but to be doing stuff to please people is just plain annoyance.
its a complicated world out there.
it has been so and will always be so.
we cant change what people expect us to be.
but at the same time, we should always know what we want.
what matters most is making ourself and people we love happy.

this stigma or schema tat we haf are not absolutely correct.
we may feel afraid of going to juvenile centres..
we may even feel afraid of going to the prison becos we expect them to act as potrayed.
its trues some should be feared due to their actions but at the same time,
some are there becos of circumstances.
circumstances made them bad.
when they are actually a good person.
understand what i'm trying to say?
we can't label a person as a bad apple just becoz he/she has done something bad.
whats past is past.
give them some room to repent.
maybe, just maybe if we try to listen more..
to accept more...
we can create a better surrounding not only for ourselves but also the community.

humans need sharing.
sharing helps them de-stress.
it helps to not be selfish for a bit and listen.
caring does not make us less a human.
it encourages friendship and opens our heart to love. never to hate.

in this world,
where people are too busy. with no time to spare.
friends and family matters a lot.
they help us to overcome every obstacle and gives us the courage to move on!
to excel.
i would'nt be here if not for my family and best friends support.
:)) my heartfelt gratitude.

wat more, life is short.
its better to love.
than hate.

P/S: stop this stupid annoying. irritating. kezaliman. kekejaman. LAH IS****! i just read yesterdays paper. a beautiful kid, merely 7 of age. buried under the rubble by u guys stupid intention of expelling terrorists! p mAM~ ah eh! Theres no place in this world for 'animals' like you guys!

CP,
signing out.

2009-01-02T16:48:00.002+08:00

IT's a tad to late to be talking about wat had happened during 2008.
Well. who cares rite. haha!
2008 has been a very intriguing year for me...
it has in fact been wonderful with its many ups and downs of course.
wat saddens me in 2008 was the fact that i grew fatter. LOL!
but it has been a journey well travelled.
with the sudden returned of friends from the past...
and current friends being more appreciative then ever.
what more could a gurl ask for rite? :)
bummer though being the drop in my results. but.. so what?
i've been soo balloon headed by my results that i find myself a little lazy to study.
tulah...sape suruh.. kan.kan.kan.
But alhamdulillah...
it has been a very meaningful year.

WAH~~
i'm thankful jap tadi.
tibe2 firefox ku mati eh.
slmt blog automatically saved.
if not....
akfjasdhfvsdnfmcdfkcsmcfksjmfj!!!
hahahah!

oh ya...
i think, becos of my cheerful mood...
i can't think of the sad thing or uneventful stuffs wic happened.
short term memory ke aku ni?
hahaha!
watevar it is.
ku appreciate ape yang aku ada sekarang..
very.very.very much.
Alhamdulillah...
happy sangat2 dengan life.
in the next 8 months, dah nak grad~ :))
tapi ada orang tu grad dulu...
CONGRATS lahhh~~ :P

hoping 2009 will become a more meaningful year.
with maturity as its core contents.
and of course, happiness.
oh~ Allah. make me a happy person! :)
and of course, i hope to be a better person with loved ones always by my side!
i hope that i can contribute to the community and most importantly my family!
:) and of course be a better muslimah.
i hope u love me :)
kkk..
tak penting.

sok dah nak alek ukm.
journey to education shall begin again...
rasa macam sedih.
cepat sihhhh...
haiz!
Allah help me overcome this sadness...
it will all be over soon.
life is just but a continuous journey...
it will end in a bit.
it'll be best if we realize that it is just short.
and it'll be wasted if not taken seriously.
much more if it is filled with meaningless stuff.

kla....
CP,
Signing out.
MISS YOU GUYS, DUDES AND DUDETTES.

2008-12-09T01:51:00.004+08:00

Just wanna share something with u guys...
Ok. Maybe u all mite haf already know this..
But, me being a lamO.. baru tahu~
so.. I was listening to this ceramah..
By Ustazah Siti Nor Bahyah Mahamood..
On rahsia ketenangan jiwa...
Jiwa tak tenanglah katakan.. hehe :))

Terdapat 9 fadhillat bagi mereka yang rajin mengerjakan Solat Tahajjud dan rajin bangun malam..
Yang mana 5 daripadanya diperolehi di dunia dan 4 lagi di akhirat...

5 fadhillat yang akan diperolehi di dunia...

Selamat daripada segala bencana
Akan nampak keberkatan pada wajahnya
Akan disukai oleh hamba Allah
Jika bercakap, ucapannya penuh hikmah - tidak menyakitkan hati
Akan dijadikannya orang yang bijaksana

4 fadhillat pula yang akan diterima di akhirat...

Dipimpin keluar daripada kubur dengan wajah yang berseri-seri dan diberi tempat yang istimewa
Diringankan hisab
Akan mudah meniti titian sirat
Akan menerima buku catatan amalan

Wah. MasyaAllah. Bestnya balasan bagi insan-insan yang rajin bersolat and bangun malam untuk bersolat tahajjud. Tetapi tulah.. Ya Allah.. susahnya diri ini untuk bangun.. Bila tidur, ya Allah bom letup pon tak bangun-bangun jugak... haiz...

Itulah sebabnya kan kadang-kadang its better untuk wujudkan azam sebelum kita membuat sesuatu perkara..

I mean, imagine tat u really. really. really want something. for sure kita akan buat benda tu kan. buat yang terbaik sampai dapat. Alaa.. macam kalau kita suka seseorang.. kita akan cuba sedaya upaya kita untuk tambat hati orang tu supaya orang tu suka kita alek kan! hehe.. macam tu jugaklah kot... ni lagik.. balasan dari Allah sey. Balasan yang sangat3x best! and.. takde benda yang senang dalam dunia ni kan.. tapi kalau usaha setimpal dengan ganjaran! Gerek kan! macam.. puas hati ah kalau rajin.. :)) Moga-moga Allah mempermudahkan kitorang untuk mencapainya lah eh.
Amin~amin~amin~

Moga-moga Allah permudahkan juga segala urusan kita di dunia ini. InsyaAllah. Biiznillah.

erm..
k.. another unlikely post of me.
P/s: ku baru jumpe another alternatif motif for this blog, dari aku tak habis-habis menceceh yang bukan-bukan kan...~ hehe

klah..
Eid tadi fun tau!
Suka sey Eid! suka. suka. suka.
Alhamdulillah!
.....
CP,
Signing out... :))

Oh.. lupe nak share.
Try listening to Sheikh Fahd Al-Kandari. Sedap!
And of course, Sheikh Misyari! Besttt!! :))

2008-12-07T22:41:00.002+08:00

Awoke at 10 am today after sleeping at 6.30 a.m.
hahahahahha!
Time dah tak betol sey skrg. malas nak layan diri sendiri.
I wanted to sleep. REally do. taPi panas. So..~ tak jadi tido.
Then i sms-sms lah~
SukEE~ :))
I siap-ed at 10.30.. mandi, gosok baju sumer..
Becos the plan was to go to the clinic and the market..
Tommorow Eid. Remember? haha!
Mumi said she wanted to cook first. So i agreed.
At the same time, kak Intan wanted to meet us ( Ecah, me and Abg tot ) to lepak together.
So i was left with two good choice. Mumi and Kak Intan.
So i decided after everything with mum has settled, i shall meet them at Orchard Rd.

At last...
Mumi cancelled our date.
I was fortunate to have a second date. Imagine, I half siap-ed!
so tak lah sakit ati sangat~~ HA.HA!

Met Kak Intan and Abg Tot at 3.08
(I noted it as i wanted to estimate my travel time, tk penting k!)
K...
We rounded Lucky Plaza, Far East, Tangs, TAka! Kaki cam nak tercabot tau!
Tapi gerek ah...
Especially both of their bits and bits of squabble!
Ada, gado pasal lepat!
Kak Intan kept saying lepat her mother makes are damn nice!
Abg Tot kept saying, 'Adabi brand sedap!'
Then both of them squabble.. 'Adabi mana ada jual lepat!'
'Ada... ada.. serius'... and the squabble goes on...
hahahhaha! tak penting eh... but kelakar ah dorang.

Then we,
by we i mean kak Intan bought herself a new watch, a Franck Muller wannabe! hehe!
We window shopped somemore for watches.. MAhal sey.
Bak kata abang Tot, 'jual satu rumah baru ley dapat beli!' imagine the price!
Abang Tot bought himself an Angel Schlesser perfume and an advance birthday gift a bottle of Versace perfume for Kak Intan! Sweet of him! :)

Then we went to Far East..
Along the way Kak Intan mumbled something abt Rolls Royce...
kekek sey.
Its like a tongue twister for her..
susah sebOT! try saying it!
We ate at Far East. Abang Tot had 'Oyster Omelette'..
It really taste squishy and has this seafood smell..
Arghh~
Not nice! haha

It was damn fun going out with 'kakak and abang'!
Dua-dua very the high class eh.. Bingung jadiknye~
Macam everytime they open their mouth, yang kua mesti nama brand! yg ku tk pernah dgr!
Rasa selenger jugak ah.. but i got used to it! ( a Little )..
Then at 7 plus went home.
I was really3x sad tat Ecah didnt get the chance to join us.
I really felt tat i was being a lampost. Haiz.
Tapi it was fun ah..

Now at home and feeling very sleepy.
Before i lay my head to rest today..
I really wanna wish all my Friends a very Happy Eid!
Take cAre. Stay Happy Always.
Allah Hafiz.

CP,
Signing Out.

2008-12-06T09:14:00.002+08:00

Deleted my last post as i think that its too full of hatred. Macam hate blog lak. LOL!

Well. i dunno why, but the past few nights was kindof dreadful. it was not that i kept having nightmares, its just that i can't get myself to sleep. Not that i'm having insomnia or anything like that ( Nauzubillah lah eh ) i've been thinking... these thoughts get to me alot tat i can't even force myself to sleep.

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I learnt the word 'hedonism' during my first year taking Psychology. When i heard the meaning and stuff, I felt that it was foolish of the greeks to be living in such a way that they ignored all other meanings in life especially religion. I used to think that it was all applicable during those 'Juhala'" days, but it seems that i was wrong! totally!

I read Ukthi Sakinahs blog yesterday and i was utterly shocked. I mean. How could i be so oblivious to the fact that WE, yes! you and ME! is living the Hedonistic way. I mean.. how could we know rite? when everything now is going in an ever high pace mode that one even forgets to think. I myself am saddened by the fact that for a moment at times i kindof forgot to be grateful to Allah for giving me everything i have now. How could i rite? Astaghfirullah. Stupid me have always been the robot who forgets to think. I do things on impulse. When i feel like it. I'll do it.. even at some extent berlanggar dengan syara'.

U are sure rite Ukhti. Its easy to do bad things and soo hard to do Good. Its like, bad things are a magnet to humans. Its so obvious that what we are going to do is Haram but we tend to rationalize it to an extent to correct our wrong doings.

Ok. ok. i know.. its soo unlike me to be posting benda2 macam ni. saya bukanlah seorang yang alim, warak, iman-ah ( asal boleh aje,haha!) but i am actually writing this to help remind myself yang 'mengong' ni supaya ingat...

Life is not all about having fun and being happy. Itss morreeee than that!

Think~ Before making a decision. One decision will affect ur life totally. Whichever path we choose to take will determine who we are. So, choose wisely.

Thank You ALLAH. U aRE the GREATEST EVER!

Kla..
The unlikely post of me...

CP,
Signing off.

2008-11-30T22:08:00.002+08:00

it's been a great great day...
well..
the things which revolves around my life..
just makes me wanna appreciate life even more.
i had just recently renewed my aim in life.
and insyaAllah with Allah's grace i'll be able to achive it.
amin~ amin~

and to make things easier and more simplistic,
relationship ( BGR ) is not an utter importance to me right now.
losta things to concentrate on,
lotsof more important things.

so dearies peminats.
ku menghargainya banyak2.. tapi,
minta maaf eh banyak2.
ku tak boleh nak terima korang.
i've something and someone else in mind.

what i'm looking for rite now is...
FRIENDS..
nothing more ya...
i do not wat to be tied down by 'relationships'
which...
is not an important thing to me rite now.
hahax.

Sorie again.

i'm happy with what i haf rite now. with who i am rite.
i do not need an addition..
i'm just nice being happy. :))
Loving it dis way!
Suka~~

Btw..
To BFF,
Syafakallah 'ajilah insyaAllah.
and to kak intan and mamak..
Syafakillah 'ajilah insyaAllah..

hehe..
okielah nak out dah.
nak main game! ( my new craze!)
salam.

CP, signing out. :))

2008-11-21T00:10:00.002+08:00

helo...
today was a super hectic day for me. and my frens.
pagi2 dah bersiap ke KAJANG!
hahahaha...
yang aku ni tak reti2 nak wat tesis.. padahal sok kena hantar..
Well... penat ah dok depan com aje..
hahahahhaha!

And now i am in my room mengemas...
Tanpa disangka-sangka...
Banyak jugak barang aku!
hhahahaha...
penat sey kemas...
still tak abis2 jugak..
so.. buat masa ni...
gif up jap.
hahahahha!
kla.. nak sambung buat tesis.
buh bye!
saje je...
SETAKAT....
hahahahha...

Btw i miss u guys...
and everyone.
Take care....

CP Signing out.

P/S : smlm.. ku mimpi indah. and it makes me happy. Happiness is a super duper important thing in life. :))

2008-11-12T18:29:00.002+08:00

well..
its been a while. and today i just felt like talking and typing in English.
haha.. dun blame me uh.

Its like such a boredom nowadays...
well.. here i am having weeks, 3 weeks of examination to be exact..
and i'm bored to death!
literally!
Hmppfhhphdhdfffttt!
I just came back from my exam..
switch on my lappy and tried to connect myself to the internet...
out of sheer luck... it succeeded... i mean i succeeded to surf the net..
wow~ what a joyous occasion for me...
nah~ not for the fact that there's practically no one to talk to on the MSN and ...
nothing that i look forward to do..
so~ there's basically nothing to do to extinguish my boredom...
HAagagajkfajfgkagagaglkadgalsgj!

If it goes on like this.. i will be going gaga soon! hahaha...
NOT~
well...
yesterday... i was petrified by the fact that a very huge praying mantis appeared in my room!
the size of an adult's palm.
and i pratically run to Ecahs room..
dun wan to live with a mantis.. which flutters every now and then..
haiz...
then, today, as i was returning from Ecahs room...
a big reptilian...
i think like a komodo dragon.. and i'm not exaggerating... was crawling past me up the tree..!
Mak Datok! i was like.. tak perasan benda alah besar tu eh...
aku jalan selamber aje...
And now.. i suddenly feel...
that i'm living in a zoo!
ya! ZOO!
hahahahahahha...
thank Allah i'm left with another semester...
aku bukanlah pencinta Amphibians.. Reptiles.. and of course not INSECTS...
GELI~

haha... there goes...
its soo me to be speaking two languages at one time..
Perosak bahasa sey..
hahahahahahha!

Well....
i wanted to be having sort of a highly educated way of talking...
but i guess, this'll do...
ROjak talk! hahaha

i have another 2 more exams to go ...
am pretty glad about it...
one is counselling... ( so many to study )
and the other is emotions and motivation.. which i kindof like...
so .. i dun know which i'll be studying first.
by the way.. i'll be seeing my assessor tommorrow..
wish me luck for my thesis....
hehe...
dah besar aku eh...
haiz...
hehehehehehe....

okielah ...
i have nothing more on my mind to blab about.
take care all.

adios.

CP, Signing out.

p/s: i'm hungry.. ANYONE blanja me uh.. hahahaha

love ones.

2008-10-31T13:11:00.009+08:00

dayang and datin~

( reason being so, i'm still single so tak layak dapat datin! haha! )

pink vs blue~ haha

angan-angan die nak jadi mask rider.. tapi tak jadi... sebab die ingat benda ni handkerchief... so die jadilah mask handkerchief! hehe

my ukmians!

purplex! style~

enter the yellow door~

along and acu~

2nd raya~ best tau~

di pinggiran letter box~

one big family~

another big Lovely family~

di apit sakinahs~

purple raya~ nice rite? :)

suatu malam pada raya ke empat.. haha!

mina rockers lah pulak eh ? hehe

well...

a friend once told me...

memories will just hinder us...

memories arent to be created if it will just hurt us..

to me...

memories means a lot...

these are my memories...

these are dear ones...

people who matters...

people whom i love a lot....

people whose place is in my heart.

everytime

everywhere

always...

love you guys lots2. God knows how precious u all are to me.

2008-10-18T12:10:00.002+08:00

halo halo halo~

nothing much to say...
just wanna say thanks to all the well wishers.. :)
luv u all so much my frens..

hoping with the increase in age also gives me the maturity...

and a new lease in life la..

thank you tau..
terharu sangat2...
ramai aje orang yang ingat...
:))
love u all so much friends... and family. :))
to adik..
take care..
rashes tu jaga.. kalau tak nanti...
tak dapat jalan raya! :P

kla.. CP,
signing out.

2008-10-14T21:29:00.002+08:00

Wah..
tak sangka sey dah tua aku...
i mean in another 2 days lah...
dah masok 22.. no more no less..
macam tak caya gitu...

haiz...
rumah kata pergi kubur kata mari...
ya Allah..
selamat kan lah aku ni eh...
Moga Kau bukakan mata dan hati ku pada usia ini...
tak mensia-siakan hidup aku yang semakin pendek ni...
haiz...

Semakin meningkat usia ni...
semakin besar mata aku terbuka...
banyak benda dalam dunia ni yang kita tak nampak sebenarnya...
tapi.. nama pun manusia...
kalau dah terhantuk baru sedar akan kejahilan diri...
aku rasa aku dah cukup terhantuk kot untuk menyedari yang hidup ni hanya persinggahan...
cey macam faham aje kan..
hehehe.. (mesti kata2 ni mendapat kutukan sesetengah orang)
well... call me whatever u want...
dhoif ke...
kolot ke...
kental ke..
obit ke...
tapi ku tak kisah...
insyaAllah,dah nekad...
Moga Allah beri petunjuk...
buat hari ni dan selamanya...
amin~~~

a brand new day...
brand new story...
hehe...
ada aje cerita...
selagi hidup tak berhenti selagi tulah ada cerita...

well...
sunday tu ku dikejutkan dengan berita kawan ku ...
yang accident...
ku harap2 dia semakin pulih lah ye...
and to u..~ dun weri too much~ :)
satu hari suntuk tu ku diselubungi pelbagai perasaan la..
risau ada...
bimbang ada...
rindu yang teramat sangat pun ada...
heee~
tapi malam tu...
Alhamdulillah...
Allah kan Maha memahami perasaan hambaNya...
Syukur sangat2.... :))

Monday lak...
ku pergi lawatan ilmiah...
ku pergi ke Karangkraf dan juga RTM...
it was very exciting indeed...
macam2 ku belajar mengenai organisasi di Malaysia ni...

RTM...
dapat tengok pengambaran Selamat Pagi Malaysia...
suka~ sebab jarang2 orang dapat masuk studio... tengok kan...
then yang best p Traxx fm...
bertambah dengan prangai budak2 yang cute ni...
gelak ah...
hehe....

Then we went to Karangkraf...
tite security...
yang tak tahan tu...
ku and mariatul Qiftiah...
diri paling depan of the line...
ingat kan kena beratur and tunggu lah untuk masuk..
so beratur...
the guard jaga-ing us was a pakistan... ( going by the looks of him la)
kitorang dah nak jalan masok...
den he acted as though he was stopping us...
so kitorang stopped...
i wore a very blur face lah at him...
then tanya... " huh????"
die cakap something which i can't figure out...
then die cakap...
"MASOKKKKK!" as though marah...
hehe...
kitorang dah... : "ah.. eh.. " trus jalan laju2 ke dalam...
sambil jalan ku dengan kawan ku dok gelak2...
what was he trying to say actually eh ?
hahahhaa!

and one thing which was memorable..
everytime we were asked where our lecturer was...
smue orang tak caya En. Nasir was our lecturer...
maybe because he looked so comell...hehe
congrats en. nasir for looking so well dressed!
everyone thought of u as one of us!:)

i bought lots of magazine for my mum...
mesti she like~
when she like, i also like~ love u mum~

Erm...
apa lagik eh?
oooo...
assignments yang belambak tak wat lagi..
i think i'm gonna do it now...
hehe...
to all...
take care.
love ya.
miss ya.

CP, signing out.

2008-10-10T12:06:00.000+08:00

Oh Allah …
Sesungguhnya diri ini amat keliru..
Kenapa kadangkala aku berasa kesunyian sedangkan aku tahu Kau ada…
Keimanan ini begitu cetek sekali…
Sehingga keduniaan menjadi lebih penting dari akhirat…

Ya Allah…
Bukakanlah hati ini
Untuk menjadi wanita sejati…
Mukminah sejati…
Disayangi OlehMu dan manusia sejadi…

Ya Allah…
Tabahkanlah hati ini
Untuk menempuh pahit ranjau kehidupan…
Menghadapi kesakitan ditinggalkan
Mengharungi badai gelora diri yang tidak diendahkan…

Ya Allah…
Diri ini kecil jika dibandingkan dengan hambaMu yang lain…
Wajah tiada…
Ilmu cetek sekali..
Apalagi ibadah ku Ya Allah…

Moga Engkau bukakan hati ini untukMu…
Ikhlaskan diri ini untuk Mu…
Andai bukan jodohku dengan dia…
Tabahkanlah hati ini…
Temukanlah aku dengan insan lain yang mampu membimbingku ke arahMu
Bukan jauh dari hala Mu
Yang dapat membawa ku menuju sinar bahagia di dunia dan akhirat…

Sesungguhnya Tuhan,
Jika diciptakannya untukku…
Maka dekatkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku…
Bukankanlah hatinya untuk membimbingku kearah Mu
Dan moga tidak ku dan dia dikhayalkan dek nikmat dunia…
Moga Kau Kabulkan doa hambaMu yang dhaif ini…

Amin~
Amin~
Amin~
Amin Ya Rabbal ‘Alamin.